Tyler David Rick

I doubt anyone will ever see this, but it's worth writing; Well to me anywayss.

This boy had, and still has, my heart. Since the first time I met him in August of 2008.He's sweet as the finest chocolate, but mean as the most poisonous snake on the Earth. He's been through hell. And he's put me through it too. Even though he doesn't love me the way i love him, I can't help but fall for him. It's one of those "secret loves" since we aren't even suppose to be talking to each other. I gave him my world, and once he realized it, he kept it from rocking so much, then *BAM* earth quake. and i was left to rebuild everything from the start, the trust, trying to piece my heart together, my "strength" I'm known for, EVERYTHING. I couldn't trust anyone with my secrets, or my heart, or my world. It's been almost a year, since I had that talk with him. The one that every girl dreads having, because she's not sure if he feels the same way. Well, needless to say, that conversation didn't go well. He told me he still loved his ex still, since he had been with her for 2 and half years (Even though they weren't together at that time) and he'd never be able to love me like he loved her. Sad thing is, he was dating some whore not even 4 days later. (Haha)
He was the only one who could stop me from doing anything stupid to myself, the only one who could make me laugh when I was crying my eyes out.

Why?

Why do I care so much about you?

Why do I constantly love you?

Why do I constantly think of you?

Why am I so protective over you?

Why haven’t I given up hope for you, yet?

Because, you’re a part of me, if I lost you, I’d lose myself.

I miss you so much.. I just want things back to the way they were last year. Things were so simple, even though it wasn’t that easy. I miss getting phone calls and text saying “you’re my best friend I love you” . Why can’t we go back to then and stay there? Before everything blew up into pieces, before all the stupid drama. Sometimes I wish I would have never “introduced” myself at Hadrian's.. I wish I wouldn’t have fallen for you and let you tear me apart to leave me alone to build it all back up with most of the pieces missing… What you and no one else does understand is you were the guy I fell for the hardest, you were my world. I wish you still were, everything reminds me of you. I can’t go a day let alone an hour without thinking of you. I’d still do anything and everything for you...even though I know you’d never do the same for me. I can’t stop the way I feel no matter how hard I try. It as though “fate” wants us to work things out but no one wants to make that move… I know you had and still have your reasons for doing what you did. And you know it killed me, if you didn’t I think by now you should have figured it out… It’s so easy to lay here and write about you I could do this for hours, days, and weeks. Nothing last forever though. I hope I never become a burden or anything that would stop you from doing what you want to do. Even if I don’t agree with it. That’s all I want and ever will want is for you to be happy. Even if I’m not the reason you’re happy. I’ll probably never be completely over you but I hope my feelings die out…at least some part. I wish you could see how much you’re no longer a want it’s a need for me to see you, hear your voice or just read one simple message from you just to know that for a second, I crossed your mind. You’ve made me become a different person, in some ways I thank you for all of it. In others I just want to strangle you, go back in time and do everything different. Then the other part wants to do it all the same… and that part keeps thinking if I do just one little thing different we could have been something great. I believe we could have made the world jealous. I’ve never stopped loving you.

I like the way you sound in the morning. We’re on the phone & without a warning I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard I like the way I can’t keep my focus I watch you talk, you didn’t notice I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together Every time you smile, I smile And every time you shine, Ill shine for you I’m feeling you baby Don’t be afraid to jump then fall Jump then fall into me Baby, I’m never gonna leave you Say that you wanna be with me too Cause I’m gonna stay through it all So jump then fall I’ve never been so wrapped up, honey I like the way you’re everything I’ve ever wanted I had time to think it over and all I can say is come closer Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me Cause every time you smile, I smile And every time you shine, Ill shine for you. -Taylor Swift "Jump Then Fall"

Quote Collage

Don’t let someone become your priority in your life when you’re just an option in theirs
Do what makes you happy, be with you makes you smile, laugh as much as you breathe, love as long as you live
Laugh your heart out, Dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain, Live, Laugh, Love, forgive and forget life’s too short to be living with regrets
I smile because you have all finally driven me insane Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything is okay, hold back the tears and just walk away. Your friendship is a special gift. Generously given, happily accepted, and deeply appreciated.
Don’t let someone become your priority in your life when you’re just an option in theirs When I shut my mouth and simply walk away, it doesn’t mean you won, it means you’re stupid behind isn't worth my time.
God doesn’t give you the people you want he gives you the people you need to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be. Everyone sees who I appear to be but only a few know the real me you can only see what I chose to show there’s so much more you just don’t know A guy gives his girl flowers and says, "I will give you 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake and ill love you till the last one dies." The worst part of being lied to, is knowing you weren't worth the truth.
Sometimes not being in control is the best thing in the worldImperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
When the world screams give up...hope whispers try it one more time.Dream as if you will live forever, live as if you will die tomorrow.Comedy is simply a funny way of being serious.If life was easy, there would be no adventure.
Everything I'm not made me everything I am.
We do not stop playing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop playing.
If I reached up and grabbed a star for every time you made me smile, I'd have the entire night sky in the palm of my hand Dream as if you'll live forever… live as if you'll die today. The best thing about pictures is they never change even though the people in them do.
A friend will stop u from overreacting, a best friend will walk beside you giggling "Someone’s gonna get it" Good friends never let their friends do stupid things.... alone Memories are only as good as the people you make them with Do not put the name of someone you love inside a heart, for a heart can be broken, but put it in a circle, for a circle is eternal.
We're all damaged in our own way. Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy. Every single one of us."The truth hurts...so we lie.Whoever said happiness comes with sunshine, has never danced in the rainGood girls are just bad girls who don’t get caught I know, I said your special and u smiled... but you know I meant short bus special right.... A good friend makes sure you get home every night with your panties still on... I know right from wrong... Wrong is the fun one. If drama was vodka everyone would be so wasted.
When I text you it means I miss you. When I don’t text you it means I’m waiting for you to miss me.I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know where better off letting go. It’s like were scared to lose something we don’t really have. Some of us say we'd rather have something rather than nothing at all, but the truth is... to have something half way is harder than nothing at all. Keep smiling, it makes people wonder what you're up to
Sometimes, No matter how much you love someone, give someone, or be there for someone, it will never be enough. And you have to decide if it’s worth it to keep throwing your heart at their feet, so they can walk all over it one more time.... The best things in life are unseen, that’s why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry, and dream

Park Swings

Pathway

Sunset on the bay

Have you noticed most of my pictures are of a sunset on the waters?
I just noticed that, haha. :)

"Never" Edit

A picture of the sunset on the river, and I added one of my favorite quotes to it.

It's impossible to not love you